NO LEMONADE(FUCK BEY): ELI

What do you do when you are in a storm? Is there a place that you can go to seek refuge? I am stuck in a space that has a never-ending cycle of turmoil and defeat I feel like the air has engulfed my lungs and I have no room left to breathe I never have any room to breathe All I see is darkness The coldness rivets up my body and keeps me still It feels like a state of paralysis in my mind Stuck between wanting to be happy and embracing defeat I hardly smile anymore while everyone else is smiling around me The sickle from the reaper is piercing my soul Blood is on my hands The stains are noticeable even when I cleanse them the remnants remain How much longer can I bear this pain? I use to think I was the storm THE FUCKING EYE OF THE TIGER but that was just days of yesteryear when I had more desire to proceed Life is LEMONS NOT FUCKING LEMONADE!!!