I AM!

People walk around with masks on everyday to protect themselves from the world. We claim to be happy, when in reality we are broken. We claim to be strong, but become weak when we are alone. We claim to be confident when but have major self esteem issues. We claim to be fearless, when in reality we are scared out of our minds. Reveal yourselves, take off your masks. BELIEVE ME it feels AWESOME! #Day#2 of my journey..... CONFESSION: I have self esteem issues, I cry when im hurt, I hate saying IM SORRY, I'm scared of building NEW relationships..... I'm a work in progress.

  


When Did You Fall In LOVE with HIP HOP?

    I am an 80's baby at heart and I remember when I was first introduced to Hip Hop. I was watching MTV and VH1 and I watch the rap videos that would play after school. I remember "Yo MTV Raps" and Dre. Dre and Ed Lover. I first fell in love with HIP HOP when I heard "Cha-Cha Cha by Mc Lyte, "It's my Beat" by Sweet Tea and "The Greatest Man Alive by 3 Times Dope. The list is longer but I had to name a few. I had my boom box and rocked out to Afrikka Bambata and lounged out on the couch to watch  my Crush Grove and Beat Street VHS tapes. The music back in the day was life for me and I miss those days dearly. This new age music has been manipulated and stepped on and seems quite unrealistic. I guess I'm offended  that the nation is in a recession and all I hear on the radio are songs glorifying the bling, making it rain, drugs, money, sex and power. Is this what our children have to look forward too? I remember when me and my friends would clear the living room just so we could dance to Kid n Play and Big Daddy Kane.We would "Qun diddly diddly diddly dee" to Heavy D and wave your hand in the air when Chubb Rock's song hit the airwaves.  I remember as around the age of 8, my older cousin came to my house and she brought her cassette tapes and "Me and Kid Sensation and that home away from home, in the black Benz limo with the cellular phone", (My Posse's on Broadway by Sir-Mix-A-Lot  blazed through the speakers and I thought I had died and gone to heaven. I jammed that song for months remembering every word. I loved Hip Hop at one point in my life, it meant so much to me. The movement represented the struggle as well as the care free beats to make your body rock. We can't forget "Breakin 1 and 2" and Ozone and Turbo with the break dancing "Electric Bugaloo" type style. Hip Hop was knowledge, it was ART, it was about battling and broadcasting your skills in a non violent way. It gave hope to young men on the streets, it gave them a way out. When you heard a rhyme, you heard a message that was monumental. What happened to our generation? What happened to our MUSIC? What happened to HIP HOP? 


Who is your favorite MC?

Are you MOTHERING your man????

Sometimes women get accustomed to the daily routine of cooking, cleaning, and nurturing offspring. This is supposed to be for HUSBANDS or CHILDREN, but have been connected to these so called "Babes in Toyland" type men. In the last decade or so, there has been quite a few men that enjoy sitting at home without a job being pampered by women FRIENDS. Yes, obviously they haven't recieved a title yet. He often explains to everybody that she is just his friend and he continues to reap the benefits that only a husband should recieve. These motherly type women choose to cater to these men without them having to make any committments. Most of these women have a fear of being rejected or suffer from some kind of abandonment issues. This in turn leads to wanting to control all situations and relationships. Women as a whole need to learn to be comfortable in their own skin and quit allowing men or past endeavors to define them. It takes a great deal of time and effort to raise a boy into a man, and that is almost impossible coming from only one woman. It takes even more patience to deal with a grown man still trying to find his way. The lack of patience in ourselves can lead to settling for something that looks good on the surface, but is down right trodden on the inside. To be loved is a feeling that is desired by many but not technically understood. When you control something it doesn't necessarily love you back the way you want it to. The one who is being controlled becomes resentful and mean spirited. This also becomes quite consuming and it alienates you from the rest of the world. A lot of women overcompensate by putting up fronts abour their weaknesses, so they choose men who they feel are weaker than them. This allows them to feel better about themselves and their position in life. The bad thing about this philosophy is that when you change, so does your control. When you no longer want to be in authority, the game plan changes. You start to see yourself in a different light and the man you once loved to control, now becomes a mere roach under your foot....EWWWWW!(making a stinky face).... The moral to this story is.......Allow these men to take control and take the lead. Woman are designed to be helpmates, not doormats....IJS!

Define "LOYAL", Define "REAL"

First, I want to start off by saying that I am so tired of hearing people say "You aint real" or "You aint Loyal" or "You aint bout that life". This statement is so absurd to me. People walk around trying to define realness to everyone around them and to be honest it just seems superficial to me. We all have a little shady in us. If you say that you don't, then you are lying to yourself and everyone else around you. The only person we should be real with is "ourselves and "GOD". There is too much emphasis on what people arent doing for you, instead of what you arent doing for yourselves. We don't have to keep trying to prove ourselves to PEOPLE. We shouldnt be that shallow. I have learned that people define you based on their own perception of you. Don't allow people to put you in a box and step all over your character....Thats so NOT cool!!!!

Fairweather Friends

OBSERVATION 101: I have never been one to have many friends. I am just not into having to deal with too many personalities all at once. It takes patience to deal with people and there burdens and excess baggage, therefore I limit my relationships. God is still working with me on my "patience" issues. It takes a great deal of effort and time to break down boundries. The bible tells us that we are transformed by the renewing of our minds. If the people that you associate yourself with constantly bring you down and stunt your growth, then you may want to re-evaluate your circumstances. Friends are there to feed you, empower you and assist with your growth. Proverbs 18:24 states: "A man/woman of too many friends comes to ruin, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother." Proverbs 13:20 Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm. **If God is trying to wean people out of your life...LET HIM!!! If you will allow God to prune out the people that He does not want you to have in your life – then what He will start to do is to bring in the people that He will want to have in your life.